KharatosGTI
Rally Car Newbie
We had a long chat today, even went to the beach where we went on our first date.
The craziness is gone, the pain has been there. Today we just genuinely talked to each other from the bottom of our hearts, going over the entire 4 years we had together and realized that we had set off on the wrong foot ever since the very beginning, or perhaps, even when I first laid eyes on her.
There's no anger today, no hate. Just countless regrets of how and what we could have done differently to result in a different outcome. Without any intentions we had hurt each other in so many different ways that it's nearly impossible to remove all the pain without a significant amount of time. We shed real tears of pain and regrets from deep down, she said she missed me terribly and I had the same feeling, but both of us knew we'd just enter another round of hurting each other if we got back together. We hugged each other and promised stay in contact and be a friend as much as possible.
This is not a Hollywood story, there was plenty of episodes of nasty drama I can write all night long about it, but I want to spare you all the headache of going through those.
I'm sitting on the thought of selling my GTI and going to New York, it's been at the back of my mind for quite some years now but I never thought I'd do it because of her.
I can honestly say I'm at peace now, there's still a chance that we will end up back together albeit a small one. Below is a quote from Eminem's latest song, kind of resonated with me:
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Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you?
What happens when you become the main source of a pain?
........................................................
And when I’m gone, just carry on don’t mourn,
rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that I’m lookin’ down on you smilin,
And I didn’t feel a thing so baby don’t feel no pain, just smile back!
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The craziness is gone, the pain has been there. Today we just genuinely talked to each other from the bottom of our hearts, going over the entire 4 years we had together and realized that we had set off on the wrong foot ever since the very beginning, or perhaps, even when I first laid eyes on her.
There's no anger today, no hate. Just countless regrets of how and what we could have done differently to result in a different outcome. Without any intentions we had hurt each other in so many different ways that it's nearly impossible to remove all the pain without a significant amount of time. We shed real tears of pain and regrets from deep down, she said she missed me terribly and I had the same feeling, but both of us knew we'd just enter another round of hurting each other if we got back together. We hugged each other and promised stay in contact and be a friend as much as possible.
This is not a Hollywood story, there was plenty of episodes of nasty drama I can write all night long about it, but I want to spare you all the headache of going through those.
I'm sitting on the thought of selling my GTI and going to New York, it's been at the back of my mind for quite some years now but I never thought I'd do it because of her.
I can honestly say I'm at peace now, there's still a chance that we will end up back together albeit a small one. Below is a quote from Eminem's latest song, kind of resonated with me:
--------------------------------------------------------------------
Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you?
What happens when you become the main source of a pain?
........................................................
And when I’m gone, just carry on don’t mourn,
rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that I’m lookin’ down on you smilin,
And I didn’t feel a thing so baby don’t feel no pain, just smile back!
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